Emotions

There are two ways to handle emotions 

1. Tantra 

Become the emotion. Be total 

2. Yoga/Buddhist 

Watch the emotion. Be the uninvolved witness

In both pathes/techniques the transformation is made through radical acceptence. That doesn't mean to act violently in any way. Supression anyhow is not the way according to these pathes. 

Sometimes the toughest situations can become our greatest chance for transformation. Likewise death is seen in a differend light. 

The following text is about negative emotions from a tantric perspective. 

Empire of the sun - Alive - Freedom is within you

When you say you hate something people think something is wrong with you. Who said we are not allowed to feel our feelings? Half lovers always love only the half of you.

Of cause its unhealthy to get stuck in negative emotions. But who said that I would have spend my life with hatred? A feeling comes, you feel it, it goes. Who has a problem now? I don't have one. Life is simple at the end. 

I guess I still feel alive because I was never someone who suppressed her emotions on the long run. I can be diplomatic only for a certain time. When I needed the money lol. I've been completely emotional in my youth. 

You can hate it when you see someone killing an innocent animal. That doesn't mean that you don't love life or the one who is doing this terrible deed anymore. 

I guess its in my genes. I was so from child on. When my friends wanted to beat up smaller children I've been always the one protecting them. So around me nobody was beaten up or treated badly. 

If I could prevent it I would prevent every meat eater from doing so but I have accepted that I can't prevent it and found my peace with it. By the way I am still praying for the animals and the meat eaters even after 40 years sometimes. 

I never agreed with the kind of concept of karma that justifies someones slaughter with them having a bad past life. Someone needs to be killed to become a better man? Like that vicious cycles never end. 

LOKAH SAMATHA SUKKHINO BHAVANTU 

https://youtu.be/IPKAwJKGSDc?feature=sharedmeans 

Empire of the sun - We are the people who rule the world. A force running in every boy and girl.

Andreas was a classical guitarist. We also liked rock music. Sometimes when we were drunk we heard songs from genres that we never heard usually, like this song. I had never imagined, that I would be listening to it on repeat after his sudden and early death. 

40 years was a long time for a friendship. At least today. I would have to live at least 101 years to be able to know someone new for another 42 years. Never let yourself be ridiculed for having feelings. Grief is human.

I am very happy that I am still connected to my first and longest-standing girlfriend even after 48 years. Love stands the test of time. Communities of interest don't. They leave us disappointed, if we take them for friendship. 

It's not enough to say I love you. Love is more than a word. I had a girlfriend who loved me from the first day of my life until the last day of her life. I had more than one friend like that. I want only friends who are like that. 

Andreas we lived an adventure...thank you...I feel grateful ❤️🌹

https://youtu.be/hN5X4kGhAtU?si=DLqEWsmEpBmWjHxt

Music & Grief

Music has personally helped me a lot to process and get through my worst grief. Just as our loved ones say goodbye to us and we say goodbye to them, at some point the grief will also leave us again. 

Then when we have lived through it. And not when some society expects us to function or people who have no patience or understanding for us want it. 

Feel all your feelings. Let them shatter you completely. Don't run away from the emptyness. Don't avoid anything. Go deeper into it. 

Events that shake the ground are valuable. 

Use the gap. Don't run away from the void. Relax into it. When you come out your compassion is even deeper. 

Three years ago my mother died. It isn't long. People who have no understanding for our grief maybe don't know true love or friendship. 

I always find it astonishing and sad how many people have or had a bad relationship with their mother.

Psychologists say that the relationship with our mother is decisive for all other relationships we have in our lives. We are born out of her. 

The best mourning song for me was by Thin Lizzy, Still in love with you. It's a good feeling being through the worst and to start feeling grateful again. 

Blow me out, blow me away...

https://youtu.be/0HQV9I0C_bM?feature=shared